Genres: Young Adult, Contemporary, Mental Illness, Death, Romance
Publisher: HarperCollins/Balzer + Bray
Publication Date: January 1st 2015
2 OUT OF 5 STARS
“Anyone who has actually been that sad can tell you that there’s nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression.”
Ayzel doesn’t have a lot going for her in life. An infamous father, a mother who ignore her, classmates who pay far too much attention and absolutely no friends. The only problem is that she’s too nervous to do it along. Using the internet she finds a partner to take the plunge (literally) with her. However as the date of their death gets closer things start to change for Ayzel, and she wonders if she can change them for her partner as well.
An excellent depiction of depression (for about half the novel) in not only the nerdy outsider Ayzel but also in the handsome, well-off Roman. It was brilliant with it’s descriptions of depression and wanting to die. The characters were lovable enough, you felt their pain. Ayzel’s odd obsessions were a little overdone. Her love for physics and classical music felt a little hammy.
I cannot say that I didn’t love reading this book but the ending was majorly disappointing. The characters overcoming their depression could have been a decent end, as could the one of the characters going through with it or both. What was not an acceptable end was love curing Ayzel of depression. She fell in love with Roman and within less than a month was smiling and wanting to live and planning her future. It was such a fairy tale ending it made me sick. We never see Ayzel getting closure with anyone but her mother, and Roman. Ignoring her father who is the most important.
It was a very well written book, and a book I loved reading. It did have quite a few severe problems though that made it look like depression was a little too romantic. There was no reason to twist this into a love story at all.